4/20 spend recovering from 4/19

I cracked my head open in the middle of the night morning. I let the universe pour into it and I discovered that I no longer existed. I thought of all of the love that I have given away. It was the only thing that made me feel real again. Adventure Time played to my right. Everything became trivial as I repeated to myself, "This is life changing. I will not be the same tomorrow. This is life changing." My own mantra.

I think I may have seen God stretched across the light of forever.

'But it's no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then'

-Lewis Carroll

Flirt all night

Face red fo-evskis!

Only this makes sense

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TDj3sorWXbE

To J:

Did you drink the rest of the vodka?

"Is that even a question?" I know it's not. Just like, 'did you eat the rest of the pizza I bought?' and 'are you going to eat the rest of the other pizza I bought?'

Because you take the things that I buy but won't spend a little gas and time to come see me.

I am upset. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry I resented you so much and never told you.

Pathos pathos pathos pathos

Even sugar sweet pop lies couldn't help just make it weirder like it's not your arms I want anymore or anyones just something not loneliness but getting more open is going except hard. I once knew how to not say the wrong things. Contrived this; contrived that. Just fucking ask, ok?

Obligatory

I love you without meaning to. Because you are deep and nobody else knows it. Like a secret that I can keep in my head and no one else will get to it.

Work is good but writing is stagnant. Obligatory almost. Ob-lig-a-tory. Obe-lig-a-tory. I can't even be that cute anymore. Nevermind, nothing is stagnant. I Can't even make up my mind.

This morning is weird with the blues a day late.

You won't even read this. Even.